Remember that day?
The day i asked you,
"您知道我有多爱你ma?"
guess you knew my answer anyway but it's not the complete answer though
I'm gonna risk my life to write this here & if i get caught, well, that's th end of me then.
{L}
I love you more than you can ever imagine, in fact the most so far.
When i realized i fell for you, i actually didn't wanna accept that fact.
When we were close, i didn't wanna lose what we had.
I was & am afraid to lose you, even as a friend.
I guess i don't mean that much to you anyway So that's stupid on my part.
guess i'm just plain stupid. you were my priority, but to you, not even close. "set your priorities right" yea, i'm not one of them so it was stupid to say that that day. {I'm right at th bottom right?}
Thinking maybe i had a chance.
Yea, i sound cheap & it's not what i want anyway.
I don't know what to think right now.
To think that i'm stupid? that from th start, i dont deserve your love anyway & that im wasting my time 'waiting' for nothing cause you'd only treat me as a friend.
Or that maybe, maybe, it was worth everthing (though stupid)
After writing this whole chunk of words which you wouldn't see anyway,
i've come to a conclusion.
I am DOWNRIGHT STUPID & Pathetic =.=
Yea, i suck & fated (condemned) anyway...
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